"the only thing i'm worried about is .. if this does nothing for me after 30 days, what do we go back to doing?
throwing temper tantrums again?"

If you can get your mind out of this for 30 days.. heck.. even half that.. I suspect we won't have to worry about temper tantrums.

"do we figure out a plan on how to go for the jugular?"

This could be an option.

"i suppose we will cross that bridge when we get there."

Yep.

So.. what are you going to do today.. that is different?

What was the purpose you woke up for this morning?

Squash seems like a good thing.. nice to see you talking about it.

Again.. things don't have to be grand. Look around you at people. See if you can spot someone in need of a hug.. or just a smile. I know.. it seems trivial.. or silly.. but just try it.


Relax
Eat
Think
Act normal
React.. Smartly.
Do something different.
Emulate.
Do Work.

Lets get "RETARDED" in here.