don't know why i still resort back to this username but it's just easier, i guess.
i had a discussion with forrest. i needed to learn something from his perspective. it was something that weighed on my mind for a while and wondered whether it was going to make my journey a lot tougher than it already is.
i could not discuss it here because this is still a public forum. and i apologize if you feel left in the dark.
it doesn't change things that much.
i gave my word that i would try to do the work and see if anything happens.
joining the elite squash league was money well spent. i play often and so far, it has kept my mind focused on the game and getting better. there is zero talk about my m when i'm at squash. i'm sure my friends know and prefer to keep the mood upbeat when we get together. last night, someone even asked me if i was a student. she said i looked like i was 23. not bad for someone who's in her late 30s, huh? could be that i updated my squash clothing and now i'm playing in skirts, rather than dumpy shorts.
shared my cupcakes with co-workers. they were very appreciative.
the only thing i'm worried about is .. if this does nothing for me after 30 days, what do we go back to doing? throwing temper tantrums again? do we figure out a plan on how to go for the jugular?
i suppose we will cross that bridge when we get there.
