Thank you for your reply. I appreciate your comments. It is so hard to go on some days; last night was particularly bad and this morning is as well - I've been awake since 3am and still need to deal with my kids and work all day.
The despair I feel is indescribable.
About the letter - please let me know more...no I haven't really said sorry often enough to my H and know that this is an issue of his with me. I'm terrified of contacting him tho as I don't want to push him farther away.
We've had no contact since he dropped our D off on Sunday and he'll be picking her up tomorrow and I'm scared to see him.
Help me, I'm really losing hope about everything including making it through this.
Don't send a letter now you are not in the right frame of mind. Take care of yourself first - sleep, diet, exercise, prayer, talking. Fill your physical, mental, spiritual and emotional needs yourself.
- Make a list of all you are grateful for.
- Help someone else today.
- Play with your kids.
- List some short term goals.
You can handle it.
The Stockdale Paradox helped me stay focused.
Cheers Coach
M22,H45,W45 S21/18D12 Retain faith that you will prevail in the end, regardless of the difficulties and at the same time confront the most brutal facts of your current reality, whatever they might be.
