I need help in the biggest way. I feel so helpless

[timehealsall]

I feel so blah today. UGH.. I need to snap out of it.

I checked his emails today and he received one from the landlord asking how he was doing. H replied that he was "dealing with bullsh!t every day and trying to get his sh!t together and make money" Landlord replied for him to hang in there and then said "getting laid there? I doubt it my lil bro lol" I didn't find this funny ONE bit. In fact, it stung.

He's played me out to be such a frikkin horrible ogre.

I yearn to feel close to someone again.

I watched a couple on the train and it made me so sad. He was standing behind her and kissed the top of her head and caressed her. I MISS that. I want that.

Is this all really worth fighting for? is HE worth fighting for?

I can't answer that.