Thank you for your reply. I appreciate your comments. It is so hard to go on some days; last night was particularly bad and this morning is as well - I've been awake since 3am and still need to deal with my kids and work all day.
The despair I feel is indescribable.
About the letter - please let me know more...no I haven't really said sorry often enough to my H and know that this is an issue of his with me. I'm terrified of contacting him tho as I don't want to push him farther away.
We've had no contact since he dropped our D off on Sunday and he'll be picking her up tomorrow and I'm scared to see him.
Help me, I'm really losing hope about everything including making it through this.
