Sandi, I have come to this realization. I know it will be totally up to me. I am ready for the work, have started the work, and will continue the fight. I have a lot of work cut out for me, a lot of things to change about myself and my actions. I first have got to be the person that I want to be, then I can see where our marriage comes into that. I know some of what has to be different going forward, if she can't agree to that, then it will be what it is. I'm tired of being unhappy, being the peace maker, putting my life on the back burner. I'm taking a stand for myself finally. Thanks to everyone here, this site is A+. She is going to a concert this weekend, think I'm going to take the kids and go to the beach for the weekend. This is very unlike me, but I'm ready for a change of pace. I know that isn't just me, but they are a big part of my life.
H 38 W 34 M 7/98 Bomb 2/19/10 D 7 S 5 Still under same roof
