Most mornings when he leaves for work I will get a kiss goodbye and he will say I love you,Lately and more often I will still get the kiss but the I love you is not said. That was the case this morning, It is sad how I seem to hear those words so much. When I don't hear it it just sets the tone of my mood for the day. For example Yesterday he did say ILY, and I was filled with hope knowing we were going to make it, that we were going to stay together and work through this, today I did not hear ILY and now I am all stressing agian to UH OH did he change his mind again, is he still planning on leaving ?
I know I should not let kim have this much control over my moods. this is something I am still working on.
Me:43 H:43 T:20 YRS M:15 YRS Bomb: 6/9/08 Bomb#2 7/6/10 Served with papers at work 7/13/10 DD:14, DD:11
