Hey M, "The only thing that I wish for sometimes -often- is that he had not loved her. I miss the exclusivity of his love. That cant change..."
I dont understand! You keep posting this and I keep replying, but he TOLD you he didnt love her ???
I think you are 'romantiscising' their R, because you cannot imagine being in his shoes, doing all he did, all that hurt and damage, walking out on his own kids, giving her gifts, trips away etc if you DIDNT love that person. Like, surely he must have loved her, else he wouldnt have done x, y, z?
Men are different. A's are different. We hurt those we love for no good reason sometimes.
I am sure he was obsessive/infatuated/excited in the early parts of the R, but on reflection, in love? No. ??? xxx