Love means to have such a deep caring for an individual you would do anything for them, sacrafice anything, give the all that you can, be there for them.
Isn't this exactly what you did for your woman friend? She wanted phone sex you gave it to her, you sacrificed your marriage, your dignity and self-respect for her, you snuck off to meet her or talk to her when you could and when you really couldn't, and you were there for her when she needed you most. Do you have any examples of how you treated your wife in the past three years that is more loving then that?
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Yes I do love my wife
Not do you love your wife, but why do you love your wife?
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I did not love the OW
But why would you tell her did then? Some men choke when they hear a woman they care about say it for the first time; some don't even say it back. But you can say such a powerful phrase meaninglessly? Love as a verb can mean to like or desire actively : take pleasure in.
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Yes I question how could I do that to my son and my wife. It is something I hope you never feel. It is like a wave that roars into the beach about .5 seconds after I wake up in the morning and it is the last thing that I think about before I go to sleep at night...wtf was I thinking and how could I have done this? Followed by why?
Seriously why? To exorcise this demon you need to understand why.
You need to know yourself and be able to answer why? To say "out of fear" or "I don't know what I was thinking" or "my head was in my ass" is not the answer.
