Cat - I appreciate that insight / this crisis has forced me to realize how detached I've actually become from myself! IC and MC talk to me about establishing myself as separate from the marriage - but after 28 years - it's tough! I've been in work mode / wife mode / mom mode for so long - there has been no time to be in me mode! It's embarrassing to think that I can't answer simple questions about what I want to do / or how much more can I take! All I know is to take it! I've always felt that I've been able to succeed in my career BECAUSE my home life was stable! It's always been my top priority! Now my whole world is out of sync! I really hope I don't sound like I am whining! My own youth was full of chaos and I've always had to "learn" what is normal! I read EVERYTHING on any problem or issue that I have - even though I have pretty good intuition - I never feel strong enough! I've got a lot of work to do!
M-48/XH-48 M=25/T=28 years Ds-24,22/S-18 D - 3/11 A Day at a Time
