The adventure chronicles--moving on

[AFWAW]

Well, I am officially divorced as of 2 Jun 10. I have to say that it has not been a fun ride and I am still quite angry with my ex for how she has been with me and for what she stands for.

I don't believe for a minute that she ever stopped seeing other men when we were trying to work things out. I don't believe that she actually wanted to work things out either. She's addicted to attention and is not and will not be happy unless she is getting her way. She has been a poor example for my daughter and for women in general.

It is disheartening to me that she can so easily put aside what we had and start immediately dating and share this information with my daughter.

Lucky for me, I get to move across the country due to job requirements and I get to take my daughter with me.

It hurts me to know that she is already dating and in fact already has another boyfriend. I know there is nothing I can do about it and try to remind myself that she is not a nice person. It's funny how art sometime imitates life in that I watched the Hangover the other day and the woman that was the dentist's girlfriend reminded me very much of my ex. I think the dentist summed it up quite nicely in the end when he told her she was not a nice person.

So, I try not to dwell on the past throughout the day and I suppose it will get easier with time and distance. What is really disturbing to me is the utter lack of respect and anger my daughter has towards her mother. I know better than to try and change a 14 year old girl's mind so I just listen and validate.

I am absolutely anxious to find someone else to share my life with but don't feel that it's the right time yet. Maybe my next location will be better for this. Until then, I'll concentrate on my daughter and work and making myself better as a person physically, mentally and spiritually.