I need help in the biggest way. I feel so helpless

[timehealsall]

Good day all!

Well, last night I came home to H and his friend with S5. They had gone to his baseball game. H called me to see where I was and I had been in transit and he wanted to make sure I wasn't heading to the field because the game was over. I thanked him and went home to meet up with them.

They played ball with S and then S and I went to dinner.

This morning H came over like every other day and went to sleep in S's bed.

I then come to work and he texts me commenting on a "great pic" of me and my "new friend" that he saw on FB and that he noticed I wasn't wearing my rings and he asked when I was going to sell them to pay bills.

I laughed at him. I had gone out without my rings Friday night and the pic was taken with a really nice girl I met that night.. Mind you, I was out with my SIL. My rings were in my bad because I felt like an A$$ wearing them out because to me they symbolize MY loyalty and devotion and vows.. but yet they are also a reminder of HIS broken vows, lack of devotion and disloyalty.

So he goes on a tirade that if I'm going out representing that I'm single, he will do the same, blah, blah, blah. he will start going out too.. just went on and on (funny, how someone who doesn't care can just go on and on about what I'm doing?!?) So I told him that I was out with his S and he said that his sister wouldn't care what I did and she would probably turn the cheek if I did hook up with someone.

I told him that I had respect for my kids and myself to carry on in that manner. but really didn't feed into his ranting.

I then said to him that we had gotten along well and asked if he agreed and he said yes. I then said that we both need space right now. Let's not focus on US.. We both have our issues with each other and need space to heal. I said, Let's worry about the bills and the kids and then maybe see where things go as far as we are concerned. I think we need a cool off. Because right now, we have alot of anger and resentment towards each other.

He said that's what I wanted before but you started b!tching at me.. which I told him that it was partially true and I wasn't asking him to move back in. I just said we need space to figure things out.

In all honesty, the one thing I've realized is that regardless of whether we are together or not, we need to get past this anger and resentment. if we don't, we can't even really be friends, nonetheless coparents...