I would love to take a break, but I don't know if there is such a thing right now. I feel like I constantly have to "work." I have asked him to help make decisions for what to do or to help plan the eve's and he doesn't. He feels content sitting on the couch and I don't. I ask what he wants for dinner he says he doesnt' care. Then I say how about this and he vetoes it. He asks what I want to do and then says no. I can't f'in win. I am soooo tired of this!! He often says that he doesn't feel like making a decision. I rarely get to say that! I've tried talking to him about this, I've tried making a game out of it...
I'm starting to feel sick. I hardly slept last night. I just want to go home. I've just been sitting in my cube crying. I don't have $ for xmas presents. And I'm supposed to take a test for work that I get reimbursed for but have to front the money. & I have no credit...
I wish I could talk to him w/o it becoming a fight. All he hears is "you're an @sshole." and that's NOT what I'm trying to say!
So, how do I NOT feel alone?? I cannot count on family. I have few close friends. I go to church sparingly.
Thanks for the hugs!
I want so much more for this r. and I know we have potential! I know he loves me and cares about me. I love him too!
