Oh, the painful part is that he used to be very expressive verbally but that he QUIT doing it. He knows how. Yes, he is definitely reacting to feeling controlled.
I'm having a hard time backing off and detaching b/c I feel like I NEED to hear these things from him. I NEED for him to put some effort into our r. I NEED to know that he is committed, etc. Maybe if i re-read DB, or Getting Through, i would be inspired to back off again.
I just don't believe that I CAN do this right now. I don't know. I feel like I have a decision to make of whether or not I am really going to do this and do what it takes to make it work...
I feel alone. I feel lonely. I miss him-the man I fell in love with, the man I know he truly is. (I've created a monster). I want my best friend back. I want help. I want support...
