I am back...and finding me

[ericmsant2]

PEI – I am so sorry that you feel the loss of your children. As I am beginning to understand and accept – I will always be there dad AND YOU PEI…will always be MOMMY to them. Our kids will probably marry one day…guess what? (FTR this may not be the politically correct thing to say on this board) a wife and a husband can be replaced – hence you can have more than one BUT – our kids will ONLY have ONE MOM and DAD. That PEI is you and I…..this is what we hold on to…this is why we protect them…this is why….NOT MATTER What we need to KNOW that they will always love us regardless of who we are MARRIED to. My heart goes out to you.

Jack – You should know me better than that….the old Eric would have mail it – the new one..well….certain things I will keep to myself. Ya can’t talk your way out of something that you acted your way into.

Bill – As always you know just the right thing to say at the right time. I have read most of your posts so i know you know how I feel. I know. Thank you for your words. If you ever wonder if you should still come to these boards. Know this my friend, I don’t know you or many of the other posters here BUT I want you to know, that you and a few others kept me alive in this crisis and for that I will forever be grateful. Thank you.

Pandora – thank you for your hugs. Thank you.

Mila – I keep making you cry…hell I suppose to try and make you laugh or smile. Okay here is my attempt at that…

A middle management executive has to take on some sport, by his doctor's orders, so he decides to play tennis. After a couple of weeks his secretary asks him how he's doing. "It's going fine, " the manager says. "When I'm on the court and I see the ball speeding towards me, my brain immediately says, 'To the corner! Back hand! To the net! Smash! Go back!'" "Really? What happens then?" the secretary asks. "Then my body says, 'Who? Me? You must be kidding!'"

I know that you like tennis so I found a tennis joke – hopefully it will put a little smile on your face. I need to catch up on your thread but as you can imagine I have been a little tied up with the kids. On a serious note, thank you for your words. You are a class act.

Cat – all I can say…is…you know…you know….

Mach – thank you for your post. BTW…I still have the pink tutu if you interested 

Brooklyn – thank you, thank you cause you always bring a certain....well let’s just say…gentleness with your insight.

Grit – I’ve yank the F’er out…pulled it right out…thanks man. By the way if Mach is not interested in the tutu are you – LMAO….

Shelbel – I know that you are going thru your own hell so thank you for posting to me.

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I still hurt but I know I will be okay. The journey that I am still on and will forever be on is one that I had to take. In a weird way I thank my wife for this.

I will survive….WHY?

Cause I choose to.