DU - You are sounding much stronger...strong enough to look inside you and to start dealing with those issues...and that's exactly what you have to do to get even better.
Maybe your H being deployed is a good thing right now, it will give him time and space to examine his own feelings...and you can use the time to work on you...and when he comes back you will be a new woman
Start the work DU...I know that you can do it
M53 H54 D17 M33Y T38Y Bomb OW 09/09 OUT 10/09 BACK 11/09 OUT 01/10 WANTS TO R 04/10 BACK with OW 05/10 Wants to Reconcile 05/11 I said NO