I think that if I am honest - I am too numb to answer some of these questions! I have been so desperate to save our family unit that I put myself and my feelings last. If my family is happy then I am happy - but I know that thinking can come back to bite me. I consider myself a fairly bright person - but this self-work - thinking about what I want - what I want to do - is the most difficult I've ever attempted. I am dumbfounded at the fact that I can't answer things about what I want to do with my time, my life, etc. I really don't know! I've always thought in terms of doing things together. We both work 10-12 hour days so there hasn't been much time left for individualism - let alone couple time. That's why the timing of this is so bad - we were really looking forward to the freedom that comes with our kids getting older and more independent. Now..who knows?
M-48/XH-48 M=25/T=28 years Ds-24,22/S-18 D - 3/11 A Day at a Time
