Heartbroken and needing help!

[irishblessings]

Again - I am overwhelmed by your kind words of support! I came home from work (to an empty house again) - and was able to pull this site up and hear some thoughtful, encouraging words! Thank you so much!

I suppose I am "dim" right now / I decided that I would send an email each morning outlining what I think the day's schedule would be - when I would have dinner on the table, etc. I sent it to both my H and S. I told them that if they had better ideas just let me know - I'm flexible! I also added that if they had other plans - my feelings will not be hurt. I don't know if this was the right thing to do or not / but I felt like it kept my son somewhat structured and it communicated to my husband in a very minimum way.

Speaking of my beautiful S - this weekend he and I went to dinner. He asked why dad was working so much. I said that he had new projects that had deadlines that needed to be met, etc. (lied:() Then I asked him about a comment he had made to my sister about there being some fights at home. He said those comments were made 21/2 years ago (when H was busted first time / moved out for a week). He said he thought things were fine now. He said that one of his friends parents were divorcing and that his friend was very upset. My S said that it didn't surprise him - he thinks you can tell when people are likely to divorce. He named a few couples we know - I asked him "what about your dad and me" to which he replied "no way - you all are happy together"... My first thought was "and the Oscar goes to...ME":) - then I thought about how my H is really the only one who is not happy. No one thinks we have anything to be unhappy about / I know that it doesn't matter - but it feels almost like I'm in bizzaro world with him - he doesn't see what the rest of the world sees.
But my Day 1 of GAL has gone well and I have had no tears! That's a good thing!
Thanks for listening! I am blessed!