The party was a lot of fun. Earlier, he was cleaning our room and he put his wed. ring in his jewelry box. I thought he wasn't going to wear it. He hasn't been much at all lately. I have been trying not to take it personally. I think it is mostly habit b/c it is dangerous for him to wear to work and then he just forgets to put it back on. So I was getting ready thinking do I say something? do i not say something? what do i say? so i said a quick prayer.
We were then doing some finishing up on the house, he thanked me for my hard work, I thanked him. I complimented him on his appearance & he complimented me. I told him ily, he told me. (he has not been complimenting me on my appearance first.) But, I have been doing ok w/o it. I knew I was SMOKIN'!!
So, I hadn't said anything, then back in the kit. I noticed that he had it on!! yippee!! so, I decided to can my attitude.
During the party, I didn't get jealous AT ALL! Also, I mentally prepared myself as h sometimes gets cocky/a little more harsh with his joking around when he is in front of some friends/or some elements and drinking. Well, he drank a lot. His one beer ran out and they drank more of his stronger beer. There was one point where he was by me at the table and I asked if he had a kiss for me and he ignored me. Later, he started a play fight in the kit. and when noone was around I asked why he wouldn't kiss me. He told me not to give him any s##t, and I asked if he was just messing with me. He said yes, and I let it go. Ok...good...was able to not go into the pit and get out of control. (I should have kept my mouth shut, but...)
Some people didn't leave until really late. H thought he was going to be sick, but fell asleep on the bathroom floor. (I had a feeling he would) We slept very late today, went for lunch buffet. he went to his parent's, I went to church. I feel somewhat detached, but not in a bad way. I don't feel like i have expectations-i just feel fine in my own way if that makes sense. I don't feel like I NEED him to fill me up is what I guess I am trying to say.
We slept very late today, went for lunch buffet. he went to his parent's, I went to church. I feel somewhat detached, but not in a bad way. I don't feel like i have expectations-i just feel fine in my own way if that makes sense. I don't feel like I NEED him to fill me up is what I guess I am trying to say. 
