((((Aver))))),
Sometime tell me what the title of your thread means! Or maybe I missed it in an earlier post. Anyhoo.

Keep that balance. You are fearless (in that way very different from me!) in looking microscopically back at your R with X.

In some ways that's good, you see how you may want to changes things but in some ways it's bad, b/c I think you take too much of the blame for the R ending.

Remember, no matter what you did/didn't do, said/didnt' say, it CANNOT be all you! Keep the balance.

I don't want to see you continue to beat yourself up. I would be remiss as your twin if I didn't try to make you see a different perspective. smile I don't want to see you demonize X, but he's not 100% innocent here. Nobody's perfect! We've all made mistakes. That includes X.

I have to leave for a going away thingy for my boss now, I'll check back soon. ((((Aver)))))