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I know what I have done was wrong and I am quilty of every ounce of that. By saying I was just as quilty as she was I was only answering your statement about quit trying to blame the OW for 100%. But you are correct, it is all my fault because I let it happen and I was a willing participant.

I will disagree with you about keeping the affair going not out of fear. I was totally backed into corner. What I failed to mention about the phone sex was that 99% was for her and initiated by her and I spoke words for her that she wanted to hear so she could get off. I did it a couple of times in begining and there was nothing there for me you being a man understand what I'm talking about??

I accept you questioning me. I have lived a life of lies for quite a long time. I deserve to have everone question wether or not I'm telling the truth do to my past actions and lies. I will no longer allow lies to come out of my mouth. Sometimes, believe me I have to catch myself and tell the truth when its about simple nothing. But I am trying to make it become 2nd nature. Anyhow I'm not asking anyone to take my side, I'm just asking for someone to take ourside (my wife and I) and to help.

Yes you are right about actual versus phone sex. It was just as the arguement goes between emotional versus physical affair. Its all wrong.

I thank you for your advice and will put it to use.