Hi IB, I just read your story and my heart aches for you. I'm so sorry that you are in this difficult position. When the bomb first dropped on my head I looked everywhere for support and inspiration. I'm a firm believer that everything happens for a reason and that as horrendous as it is - every experience presents an opportunity. This is the link to a favorite piece I listened to over and over again at the beginning: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AVx6H68Siww
It's a tough spot - you have to try to move on but only by moving through. You can't gloss over the grief but you also shouldn't wallow in it. It's a tricky balance. I find I'm walking that tightrope daily. I think creating a list of resources for yourself will be helpful (e.g., your IC, this board, your family, your friends, new activities). Above all else take what you know about yourself and how you function in crisis and use that knowledge to help sustain you as you live through this painful time in your life.
I wish you peace.
A
M - 46 H - 47 T - 20 yrs M - 19 yrs DS 7yrs DS 6yrs DD 4 yrs Bomb - 4/3/10 My Sitch
