Well, Whatis is back at work...for how long, who knows! Yesterday night I let it go at D16, I was so mad. I felt like STBX who has these outbursts frequently. I had wanted to get to bed early last night, get a decent nights sleep before going to work tomorrow. D16 was at a gf's preparing a group presentation for today. I called her at 9:00pm to see when I could pick her up and she suggested 11:00pm...I lost it. I got so mad, "You are not staying out until 11:00 pm, I will pick you up at 10:00pm., that's it!" She replied "if we fail this project it's on your head" and I said "fine, you're coming home" When I went to pick her up she started carrying on about needing to stay later. I just said "goodbye" got in my car and drove away. A half hour later I called to see how she was getting home and we got into another squabble, i ended up saying "I am so pissed off right now!" and slammed the phone down. I was fuming. I'd wanted to get a good nights sleep, was exhausted but couldn't due to D16. Finally, I phoned again and told her I would pick her up at 11:30pm. which I did. I actually punched a door I was so frustrated and that is just not me. Now, I don't present this because I'm proud of it but the anger just poured out of me and the kid took the worst of it. I got to bed about midnight. I acted like STBX does on a regular basis except she doesn't punch doors...and I don't either. The tired and sick feeling finally got to me. I guess it will be apology time tonight for me. The kid actually was working and not off screwing around. I feel bad for my behaviour but I guess that makes me human, doesn't it! Thank goodness these little anger sprees happen about once a year. I'm pretty good that way. Now, back to work...I think they've locked me in my office so I can't get out!
