LarsB--thank you for responding. It's hard for me to spend time here on the weekends. I too wish for you great luck and patience as we go through this process.
I really need to reach out this morning. I'm trying to get control of my emotions. I'm still shaky. It really was a stupid thing that sent me to the land of fear this morning. H did his laundry last night. This morning it was all neatly folded on our bed. Often he puts it away immediatedly. It so reminded me of how it looks when he packs for a longer trip that instantly I thought he was going to leave. I knew that he had a doctor's appt. this morning and a day full of errands planned. He told me that yesterday. Instead I went to the "bad place." I didn't say anything to him, and walked outside to water the flowers and calm myself down. As he was leaving I wished him a good day and good luck at the Dr.'s. I made a couple of excuses to be in our bedroom/bathroom--putting away some stray shoes, etc. Too close to pursuing behavior I think.
I really need some people to read through this one today. I need some help.
