It was over for my marriage that fast to mission. I was where you are some years ago. It does work it's way out. In my case, I had to leave and get away from her before I was able to bring the anxiety under control. However, my ex was/is still a good Mother. I didn't have to worry about her taking care of our S. It doesn't sound like in your case that's possible. I was still paying the bills for our house at that time and living a pretty modest existence. Chalked up a lot of debt in the process. Even after all these years,she still is in love with the OM, but I've garnered her respect trough my perseverance and ability to 'move on'. In some respects, I think she's jealous of my independence. I say that because she can't emotionally break away from a Man she can't be with physically. I know she does want to break that emotional bond, but she's not strong enough. You see, he's been in prison the whole time and will probably be there for a lot longer. Next parolee hearing isn't until November of 2012. At that time, it will be 20 years he's been in prison. I know, sounds like a Montel Williams show, but it's my life. Hang in there. The journey is like walking though hell, but you'll come out the other side surprising even yourself.
"It is curious that physical courage should be so common in the world and moral courage so rare." -Mark Twain
