screwing up big time and need help

[elvencat]

That's what I am planning to do as long as I can keep my emotions in check. Even though I kinda lost it the past couple days, and was very vocal in my feelings, I still managed to edit my words enough to not intentionally inflame the situation (most of the time). There was a time I'd have said every hurtful thing I could think of just to say it because I was hurting so bad.

I posted over in the infidelity list. Allen A posted that I need an exposure script. I'm definitely going to do my best to make OW's house a hornet's nest of problems for H so he can't see it as a "stress free zone" anymore.