How do I save my marriage to husband in MLC?

[RLay1100]

I finally found a place to rent and just moved in this past week. At first, I was feeling very optimistic and excited to be in my own place. This weekend, however, I am feeling very depressed- wishing he was here with me in this new place, wondering if I'll ever not be lonely. Now that I have most of "our" furniture and pictures and what-nots, I am reminded of him as I look around. ::sigh:: I just wish this all wasn't happening.

I am still having very little contact with him. I don't call or text him unless absolutely necessary, and he does the same. Actually he NEVER calls me, just texts. It bothers me he doesn't try to call me, that when we are talking to each other he is reserved (like he can't trust me with any info or feelings), that the NC doesn't seem to bother him. I worry that it's become easy for him to just wipe me out of his heart and life and forget about me because I have went "dark". I mean, did I really mean that little to him? Ugh.

He is STILL quizing the boys everytime they return to him about who "mom" is dating, is "T" hanging around. I don't understand this; I've told him (and so have the boys) over and over that I am not seeing anyone, not even "T".

Anyway, tomorrow starts a new week and I plan to pull myself up by the boot straps and begin (again) to focus on me. I really need someone to talk to... no one here seems to understand. ::sigh::