Weekends are really quiet on here... I haven't read the details of your sitch yet so hopefully I won't put my foot in it...
What do you do?
Breathe. Pamper yourself in some way. Breathe again.
What you are feeling is normal. They all put on a happy demeanor around others. If they didn't, it would make people think they weren't sure of themselves.
Concentrate on you. Take care of you.
We've been where you are and know how it feels.
You will get through this and we'll help you do it.
Breathe.
~ This Diamond now SHINES!! ;-p ~
My Sitch in MLC - http://www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Main=45253&Number=1901148#