Confused and looking for advice

[hockeymom12]

So I broke one of the rules today and cried in front of H. He showed up at baseball today and we sat in the same area and joked and talked. After baseball I went grocery shopping and he took the kids home as he had to cut the grass. I came home and started cleaning the house and just him being around got me in a panic. I managed to keep it under control and keep my emotions in check until he went to leave. He said good bye to the kids and was not lingering at all today. He did however come into the kitchen to tell me he was leaving and I said that I would follow him out because I needed to give him the MC's card. Outside he started talking about our week and what was going to happen. Our son has a baseball game on Wednesday and technically it is H's night. I asked him that if I could catch a ride with a friend of ours if he minded if I was at the game, he said sure and I can drive you home, I said I could catch a ride both ways, he then said you can come with us both ways as well. At this point I was crying a bit but managed to get it under control, we started talking about other things and then he brought up Wednesday again and said I could go with them. I said that I did not want to intrude with his time with our son and that I was sure he did not want to spend all that time with me. He laughed and said it was fine, he was totally fine with me going with them. At this time I really started to cry and ended up hugging him quickly and kissing him on the cheek. It was a very quick hug but he did put his arm around me. I then said okay you have to go now and have a great night and went into the house. So while I did show emotion I did not beg him to talk about our relationship or tell him I love him, I guess that is something? Also can I please get some advice on if I should go with him on Wednesday? This would be more time together I just do not know if it is smart.