We spoke on the phone for a bit this morning too...
I said to H, the D papers are sitting on the console by the TV, i know you havent been home, but hate that they are sitting out and staring at me. He said do what you want with them, I replied I would like to burn them. He said then do it, do what you want with them. And then said you and I should be planning for the baby, and he doesnt care or think about the papers, so do wht you want. I repeated what I intend to with them. H said OK, i dropped it.
H then asked if I wanted to go shopping for furniture today. Turns out the nursery collection he picked out was the exact one I looked at! So we went and had a pleasant time. H was extremely comfortable and looked happy.
i can't remember what we were talking about, something about Me and H and him living home, strange conversation, nothing to do with reconciling, but i recall it had to do with the fact that things wouldve been easier if he were living at home and we were a family and I asked rhetorically, do you ever think about it? Didnt expect a response. H said "Yes, I do". I was speechless. I didnt ask, i couldnt talk... H had a grin on his face, I pretended to not notice. (sigh)
How is it that there are billions of people in the world, and when I am with H I fall in love with him over and over and over again.
So tomorrow night he is stopping over to go over all the baby gifts. tuesday is birth classes... and H said he wants to do birth announcement b/c the baby deserves everything we always planned for and i said how would we sign our names at the bottom, and he said like we normally would.
Here we go again... but I am going to try and be a lot stronger this time... fingers crossed!
