So, day one of Dan detox and I made it through most of the day... smile

MIL mentioned a concert in the park tonight at six that she wanted to take all the grandkids to and I have learned what MIL wants, she gets 90% of the time...so I figured kids wouldn't be back until seven or after.

Slept until 10:30, can't believe that! Went to bed at 1:30 but still~guess I wore myself out with all the walking and being out in the heat for so long. Literally couldn't walk the first 20 minutes out of bed, the bottoms of my heels and achilles were killing me. Stupid plantar fasciitis! Now the legs are better but my lower back is killing me. Ugh.

So I went out and ran some errands, then came home around 1:15 and started reading Journey from Abandonment to Healing. Wow this is a good book! It helps explain the science behind why we feel the way we do so I don't just feel like a weak, hopeless mess! wink blush Was nodding off again (seriously!?!) by the end of chapter 2-Shattering.

So I lay down on the couch and slept for about an hour, a surreal dream woke me up. Can't remember it all but it was weird (people I didn't know were in it I think maybe Vince Vaughn and there was a talking cat?!). Got up and read the rest of Ch. 2 and started Ch 3, Withdrawal. Which seems to be where I am now...

Anywho...was reading along when this song came on

"Love Remembers"
You can forget what love was wearing
When it walked out your front door
Where you fell down to your knees
And you can forget the kind of suitcase
That was packed out on the sidewalk
While you cried there beggin' please
But love remembers

You can lie and tell yourself
You're over it and someone else will take love's place
And this is for the best
You can lie in that bed
In a stranger's arms reachin' for comfort
Close your eyes and still get no rest

Cause love remembers
The smell of a summer day
Lying in a hammock over fresh cut grass
And the promise of forever
Yeah love remembers
The sound of the pouring rain
Beatin' down on the top of a car
On the side of the road
Where it couldn't wait
Yeah love remembers

You might convince yourself
There's shelter in a bottle
And for a while there it might numb the pain
But when it hits you, then it hits you
That love's still gone and you'll be wishin'
That you'd poured it down the drain
'Cause love remembers

The taste of cotton candy lip gloss
On the lips of a long kiss
And the plans they made together
Yeah love remembers
To feel the fingertips
Running through soakin' wet hair
On the bank after a midnight swim
Yeah love remembers

guitar solo

Yeah love remembers
The smell of a summer day
Lying in a hammock over fresh cut grass
And the promise of forever
Love remembers
The sound of the pouring rain
Beatin' down on the top of a car
On the side of the road
Where it couldn't wait
Yeah love remembers

Love remembers
(Love remembers)
(The sound of the pouring rain)
Beatin' down on the top of a car
(On the side of the road)
(Where it couldn't wait)

That song always gets to me, but if you have ever heard it it is beautifully sung...anyway while it was on and I was reading my phone beeps,

Dan text, "What's the plan stan"

I replied back 15 minutes later, "You tell me I am up for whatever" bc I am not going to tell him what to do on his day.

So he calls me then, says apparently there is a concert at the park, I acted like I didn't know. He said the kids wanted to go but Sydney was also missing me a lot. I told him she was distraught last night leaving me at Relay, bc she was. Then I said just let me know when you decide and I got off the phone. I really don't want to talk to him right now...

Me-35

Together: 18 yrs
M-12.5 yrs
S-8
D-4
D'd: Feb. 2010

The LORD your God is with you,
he is mighty to save. --Zeph. 3:17