Re-Connecting

[Fightingforher]

She has told me that she scheduled herself because she doesn't feel comfortable with our MC. She said that she wanted to find another MC and she would go.

Matters have taken a turn for the worse in just a couple of hours. I got home from work and she was making us dinner. We sat down and while eating she was very distant and quiet. I asked her what was wrong and she said she didn't want to make me upset.

She then continued to tell me that she really wants a D and she thinks we should proceed. I told her if that is what she wants then I'll have to get on board. She immediately ran to the computer to look up information about our State laws, child support, etc.....

I just sat in the room with her and nodded my head and smiled.... Things got heated a bit as we talked about the house and what we would do with the arrangements of our son.

She told me that things can't be fixed in a couple of months. I told her that I've been the only one trying at this and if our marriage ends than I'll know that I gave it 100%. I'm not sure what to do now. She is so up and down, a minute ago we are talking about putting in a new Kitchen to D.

I told her that I can't do much more of this limbo so if D is what she wants then she needs to proceed and make her decision. We also talked about moving into separate bedrooms. I'm at such a loss right now, she said she thought planning future projects would put her in a better mood about us but she can't see us being romantic ever again.

I explained to her that I would be patient with that but things just got worse as the conversation progressed. How do you keep fighting for someone who doesn't want to be with you???