The weekends are really difficult for me. Im having bad panic attacks about future and what he's doing. Yesterday was a good day because my son went out with h all day and night. when h came to pick up son I went out to my car and put my beach chair in it. H asked son after who i was going to the beach with son said with my new tennis friend. Today I went by h house and his car is not there. I have so much trouble not doing this. I am so tempted to call and yell at him. I just think he is going to get use to his single life more and more that he'll never come back. Last time we were separated for a year and I detached he just enjoyed the screwing around more and more. When I called and yelled and talked sense into him he woke up, and came back home for 2 yrs . That is why I have panic attacks not calling him now, I think it makes things worse. He is very independent and doesn't care.