Start of the end..

[Gardener]

iwitw,
Glad you took some down time for yourself.
Pressuring yourself to find another woman - before your D's even final - smacks of neediness. They don't say "be careful you don't rebound," for nothing.
When you don't need an R is when you're ready for one again, imo.
Live your life and see who shows up.
Lo and behold, you took some down time, for your life and someone showed up.
Enjoy, but tread carefully.
Overall, like many of us, you sound like you are far from healed.

Peace,