Hi Debi, I've missed you. How are you??? I think I have that book somewhere in the archives. LO, I HAVE backed off on the plans thing...another story...
Well, I have to say that I continue to suck at this, I messed up AGAIN. I feel like I can't do this. He's still around, but if I keep doing this he won't be!!! I am soooo frustrated with myself, but I am soooo tired of acting!! I am sooo tired of pretending. I need some time to myself to regroup, but I just don't take it. I am kind of scared to just say that I need time away. Why? Because I am scared of what he will do when he is away? Because I feel like I should take advantage of the time that he is with me?
Not sure...I had lots of thoughts of throwing in the towel this weekend, but I know that I love him and that he is a great guy. I'm just running out of steam...and don't know where to find more coal...
karen - want to write more, boss just showed up to work...meet ya' for lunch??
