It's Sunday I have thought a lot over the last day about me. Over the course of the last 5 months, I never thought I could make it without my H. I have cried, begged, been hospitalized, and made myself the victim of him leaving, his affair, and his MLC. While I have been able to make it (yes, I am still here); a huge part of me still hopes that our M could be rebuilt.
The one thing that hurts the most is that he CHOOSE to leave. I have been so bent on keeping our chains linked, that I have ignored doors opening on other fronts. Am I having an epiphany? - No, just beginning to understand myself more and more each day.
I am also beginning to accept the fact that I am not suppose to be with my H. I must continue to grow apart from my marriage and begin to focus on me each day moving forward. Maybe I will begin to muster hope for my future soon.
Again, thank you all.
OLD THREAD-http://tinyurl.com/y98nuty Me 44 H 51 T 15 yrs M 9+ yrs No Kids "You may be deceived if you trust too much, but you will live in torment unless you trust enough."
