My sister called me today and mentioned that she saw in the newspaper on Friday that my house was listed in the foreclosure section. They have to list it for 3 weeks and then the sheriff's auction is July 8th. To say that I am devastated is an understatement! I am still on unemployment so any hope that I could even find a place to live is pretty much out the window. I've been applying online for jobs, but I've never heard back from anyone. Plus, my car is still broken down. I don't even have the money to get it fixed. You need a working car to find a job.
I'm feeling pretty low and depressed right now. And I'm fighting to not let the old me rise up in anger towards my husband. Although, right now I think he deserves a major thrashing!!
Losing the home that we had built brand new is more than I can take. We have lived here for 11 years. And I have 2 pet dogs buried in the backyard. They are underneath the trees and I have worked for years to get ivy to cover the area. This is the first year it's finally doing that. The grass that I have planted, fertilized and fussed over looks better than it ever has before! My rose bushes are blooming, the lilies look wonderful. My lavender plants are full and smell great. I love working in the my yard and garden. And I'm going to lose it all if a miracle doesn't happen.
The funny thing is that I was invited to graduation parties for my 2 nieces on my husband's side of the family. The family that wasn't even speaking to me before has now all of a sudden been concerned about me and has invited me to their home next weekend. Of course, if I can't get the car fixed, it won't matter.
I have always been a person that has hope until the last minute, so I am going to hang on to that. Besides, I can't be asking God for a miracle if I don't believe He can do it!
So, I'd appreciate all of your prayers. I need all the help I can get.
