Sorry you're feeling so rough right now...don't know if this is what's up with you or not but I've definitely found that I get into a cycle of feeling SO good with h followed by freaking out...I've come to realize that the freaking out part is based in fear...that's it's too good, that it's a sham, that I'll be hurt, etc. The fear gets masked by anxiety or anger, I pull away, the rest is history.
What helps?
recognizing the cycle and the fear. acting "as if" if you can or actually spending time away from h is you can't. Movies help me a great deal for some reason. Drinking even a small amount does NOT. exercise does.
Can you do something active and/or mindless either with h or without him? This is prime time for a freak out/backslide (least it would be for me) so do what you can to prevent that.
You're doing fine, Karen...remember that and all the hard work you've put into this!
(how about some loud music and dancing around the house? get those endorphins going).
Sage
Relax. Appreciate. Be calm. Laugh. Enjoy. Be secure. Be loving. Be loved. Don't personalize. Don't ASSume. Accept. Be grateful.
