I'm feeling really depressed and anxious. I would appreciate anyone's input. I just crash after getting along with h for several days and loving him. Now I'm thinking about divorce and feeling like crap!

I feel like noone wants to be around me. At least H HAS been acting like he wants to be around me!! He is now spending the majority of his time with me. The prob. is finding people that like to do the things that I like to do like climbing at the rock-climbing gym, outdoor stuff, etc. I like more "guy" stuff than girl stuff. I have thought about joining ski club, rollerblade club, etc.

I just continue to feel jealous and insecure that h is having more fun without me and that he has his hobbies, and that he gets dressed up without me, etc. Who is he trying to impress? He said he doesn't like to hang out in nightclubs but just bars where he & the guys go to talk. Sometimes they end up at nightclubs if that's where the other guys want to go. He's NOT out to pick up women. (OK, I know this)

I felt like rock climbing was "our" thing, but h had to give that up b/c he has carpal tunnel. So, now I feel like he has all these other hobbies w/other guys and what with me? But, we only with each other and we only feed each other ice cream. ok, i do all of the feeding. He said that we see bands together which is fun. And some of those bars are nicer which we dress up for.

ok, gotta stop talking now and get back to work. Thanks for any opinions I can get today. and for any 2X4's that I may receive.
karen