Maybe I don't really want the M either? I'm fighting really hard now, like contacting him regularly and telling him I love him even when he hasn't said it for the last 6 mths. Is this just a natural reaction for someone who's stubborn and doesn't not want to "lose"?
I've only been at this DBing for a couple of weeks, but I've spent hours reading the books and all kinds of things. Two things I've learned, although hard to practice, is don't pursue. Quit contacting him. Quit saying "I love you." Get the books. Read, reflect, and read some more. At the very least you will come out of this whole.
