I really am practicing the art of detachment. Learning to not have any expectations of anything but rather enjoy the very moment I am in rather than tomorrow or the next day. My family is so so supportive, and trying to get me through this and agree with letting H in as the father, and right now father only!
So I have a very strange story... That I need to share with you. A week ago,My aunt was a hospital waiting room patiently waiting to be called in for her psychologist appointment (anxiety). While waiting a woman approached her and asked why she looked so upset and what was bothering her. Aunt said the elderly woman sat down beside her and truly just wanted to listen. Aunt said she was sad and upset b/c her neice (me) was expecting and her husband (my H) left and she(aunt) is upset and wishes he'd come back, blah blah blah. The woman listened and said she was sorry to hEar and gave my aunt some advice on how to not stress and so on. Yesterday, my aunt was walking up to the waiting area for her weekly appointment and she saw the woman sitting there with a bag. She saw my aunt and asked her to sit beside her. She said she had been praying for me all week and hoping for a miracle. She then proceeded to pull out this custom frame with an embroidered piece of two birds sitting on a cherry blossom. And below it in hand calligraphy a saying about if you truly love someone you need to set them free, if they come back then you know its meant to be. And if they come back love them with all of your heart. My aunt was in tears! She also pulled out a small frame with a religious figure and said it was for the baby's room and it had been blessed. She asked that the gifts be broguht to me for strenth. My aunt turned to her and said I don't even know your name and you are so thoughtful and generous.turns out she is a nun. She went back to her convent last week and they are all praying for me! I'm sorry if I offend anyone, but I am religious, more of a spiritual fruit and not so much a religious nut. But this I felt was god sent. Bizarre! Enough to make the hair on my neck stand up. I still cant believe it. Aunt said to the nun, I am going to see my niece tomorrow at her sprinkle, I will give it to her then. It is a huge 11x14 frame and its beautiful. Its true. I need to set him free.
Aunt said she hesitated to tell me or give it to me didn't want to upset me, but I took it as a reminder that I have a higher power out there and hopefully he is looking out for me.
I am so touched, and just don't know what to say...
Some people come into your lives and carry a message and hope... Doesn't mean H is coming back, just saying that I need to let him go, detach and trust the process...
I feel that way about all of you... You pick me up when I'm down, support me, get me with the 2x4 when I deserve it, and just let me ramble on and on... Thank you for being god sent. You truly are helping me get through the toughest time of my life.
