He's come home

[mymonkeybug]

Well I know it's been well over a year since I have been on here. Things in general have been very good. We began going to church and have surrounded ourselves with very wonderful people, good influences for us both.

Bliss is short lived though I guess. While we are married and happy and the kdis are doing great, I am not happy in this house. I agreed to move back into HIS house/our home after he came home to the hosue I had begun renting for the kids and I. You see part of his MLC was to let his home/our home go into foreclosure. The mortgage company did a remod. and I agreed to break my lease with landlord, who I will say was very understanding and allowed me to move out. In all honesty though, after being back in here for 19 months, I am miserable here. The house isn't home and hasn't been. The bad memories are killing me and affecting our relationship. The economy has affected his work and in turn our household income and we are back in a situation where paying the mortgage is tough. I gave up a life I made and credit I had to help him right his wrongs and get his fmaily back in the home we had but wish I hadn't. He has offered to walk away from this house, yes let the bank take it, in order to keep this family happy and solid.

I told him today I need that because being here is draining the life out of me and he went nuts. He hasn't come home yet and is texting me about his anger right now over all this.

What a tough spot.