well, I'm feeling somewhat better now. Work was busy, but ok.
H called and asked what i had planned this week. I said, only tentative right now, what's up? so he asked if it would be alright if he went out tonight and wednesday. I said that's fine cheerfully. He said **i think twice** that he is leaving the weekend open. (like for US)
OK, so I gotta get my PMA hat back on!! I gotta be ok with him going out, and i gotta be happy around him. I think he is ok if i am emo, but get back on track right away. If i stay in this downward spiral, he will lose hope, etc.
I need to find somethings for me to do. vball ends this thurs. until Jan. I want to ski, but that's $$.
