What does this mean?- the WH's regrets?

[newmama]

I've actually been really. . . thinking that I'm getting tired of 'waiting' for him. I know it hasn't been too long, but I'm getting tired. I know however long I want to play this game is entirely in my hands. And right now I'm not into it.

Yes...it is all up to YOU! Some things that you probably already know that I had to discover were 1)this feeling comes and goes...one day it's very strong and then a few days later I feel the opposite. ARGHHH! You are sooo wise to learn how to live in the present!

2) to not vent to my friends and family when I was feeling ready to let go and just file for D because that is what they wanted me to do...and I would totally confuse them when I let them know later that I changed my mind!

Also, guess what? I saw the guy who was in the photo with WH and ugly girl! It's sooo weird. My town is NOT that small. I instantly recognized him. I mean, what is that? A sign? A coincidence? Weird.

I don't understand...why is it strange that you recognized the guy? I mean why is it a sign?

He also talks a lot about calm assertive energy. This energy is the best type to have in life. He helps people practice that by relaxing tension (physically and mentally) while sticking to boundaries. The thing is, you can't hide yourself from a dog! The dog WILL pick up on your weakness. So it's the best way to practice calm assertive energy.

I am definitely going to think about this some more- how does one "relax tension" mentally? I picture physically it is done through breathing kind of like when you do "cool down" after working out (in classes at least). Does that same exercise help you to mentally relax tension?

You know what- I think kids pick this up too, don't you think? When I was nervous about how to handle behavior issues the kids could tell. Once confidence came over me, now my management rocks!! Did you struggle with this at one point?

And you really must love your job- I mean I have always been sooo exhausted and thrilled for the last day of school to arrive! No matter how great my students were! But I have to admit that by the time August rolls around, I am so ready to return! (and I am ready NOW to return)