Well, I kind of blew my top a little on sat. I was just getting so frustrated with his lack of motivation or whatever. I tried to talk to him, it wasn't concise enough for his taste, so I tried to back track, he was somewhat argumentative. I wanted understanding, I felt like he wasn't "hearing" me. He thought I was doing more of the same, I didn't think that I was. I thought that he was doing more of the same, etc., etc. We finally got it straightened out and we went out to eat and to see a band.

I apologized. He said, "we all mess up," or something like that and I let it go. 180 for me-usually I insist that we make up and that he give me some affection, but he said he would need his time/space, so I let it go. I did not grovel, or try to be affectionate to him. Eventually he was somewhat affectionate, like standing against me at the bar. we came home and i did not expect snuggles, but he did put his arm out for me to curl up on his shoulder. again, this morn., i did not expect anything, but he did initiate , so it seems, that from his end, he is ok.

but my end...??? not so ok. i'm tired of trying and having patience. I really feel much more detached from this sitch than I ever have been, and am almost feeling cold sometimes. I feel like I need some of my own space. and part of me was thinking that if he doens't want to be more adventurous as far as going to see bands we don't know or eating in restaurants that we don't know, or driving to cleve., then I'll just have to spend more time with my own friends doing those things. The thing that upsets me and I told him was that one of the major attributes about me that he liked in the beginning was that I am adventurous/active/like to do things and I helped get him "off his butt." (his own words) and now I feel like I am constantly met with opposition-so i said, "this is not working." I feel dissappointed. he said he would work on his indecisiveness.

I'm struggling-don't know if it's b/c I quit taking the wellbutrin, or PMS (start in 8 days) or just my general feelings of being exhausted/mentally stressed out/etc.

Or maybe it's just me being plain old IMPATIENT. OK, so I am...

Ok, I can't go on right now. I'm getting too emo. I must go continue doing housework and maybe getting out with my gf.
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