B - we r trying to settle things via a collbortive process with both lawyers. I do not want to hurt her - nor do I want to be hurt. The children came up in a convo and I asked her again if she was open to 50/50 - she said she was not. She was a stay at home mom for a while and then worked part time for years. I on the other hand moved up the corporate ladder and traveled quite a bit so she spent more time with the kids. 2 yrs ago I changed jobs and took a huge pay cut so that I did not travel and would spend more time with the kids. I have always wanted to be the best dad. I was always good - now I really am great (at least I think so).
Yes I try to be a rock for the kids. I can tell that this is really starting to affect them. My D does not know yet. She often asks me when will I sleep with mommy again. It breaks my heart.
I understand that my W is in pain. The thougt of not having FULL CONTROL is what I believe really bothers her. For a very long time in my M I had control and now she wants it. Well she can have it...at least over herself but not over my kids. Do I believe that she will keep me from them? I'm not sure I do not think so but then again I never expected this. I want to coparent I do. I just cannot do it with a handshake that says trust me. Our lives will change we will both grow we will probably find love again. When and if that happens I want my kids in my life. My D is 9 I want at least half of the time with her forever.
Mila - thank you. I am sorry I made you cry. You are going thru a lot - I'm sendig (((hugs))) your way.
Thank you all
I'm now going to jump in the water (beach) with my babies. Check out the alt for new pics.
"The difficulties of Life are intended to make us BETTER,not bitter". "Fear is a prison, where you are the jailer. FREE YOURSELF!" "Life is usually all about how you handle Plan B." - Jack3Beans
