"I have taken something for granted. I've admitted that many times both in and out of counseling."
Say it once. Show her more than once.. there is a difference.
"What I'm saying is that if we are moving forward together then we need to talk about how that is going to happen. If we can't or don't have that discussion then we're both planning in the blind."
You are having normal progress.. nothing that needs to be talked about right now. You need lot of forward momentum before you start having "talks". Just keep plugging along like you are. Play the game for a while.
"We aren't divorced, we aren't legally separated....we're just living apart. So, I see this as an agreement/arrangement that a husband and wife have made."
You are OK with this I assume? It leaves you in the line of fire some. If you are OK with it I think it is a solid choice.
"Today is just going to plain ol' suck...I'll put a smile on and make it look like fun but inside I'll be hurting."
Thing about a smile.. even when it's fake.. it still has an effect on people.
Slow and steady right now.. don't worry too much about any movement forward.. just keep journaling.. I am still watching and following along.
Good luck.. keep your "Emotions" in check. Do things.. cause you want to. Listen to that little voice. If you are unsure.. post and think about it for 24-48 hours.
Relax Eat Think Act normal React.. Smartly. Do something different. Emulate. Do Work.
