Look, One of the things that is preached by Michelle is to do what works.
That can be applied to just about everything in life...
It's good that you have noticed that listening to other people isn't working for you.
If you can look at the progress.....That was a step.
Alienating people happens throughout this process.
Family wants so badly to see you NOT hurt anymore....
And friends can be selfish, and just want the "old" you back. They don't want to see you hurt either.
Not everyone needs to be "cut out: of your life though.
True friends will be the ones who say...R, How can I support you ?
Look for those people around you.
With that though, will be a sense of you becoming who you need to be right now. It's not even a want anymore. It is a need to be on your own to find out who you are.
I sense that you lost so much of you throughout your marriage, and sold your soul to the marriage. And it is such a struggle to find out who that person really is.
I have seen you doubt everything in your life around you.
Everything that you thought that you knew, you are finding out that it was a sacrifice of sorts of who you really were/are.
Everything that you just came through, that patch of doubting God and your role as a human....
Realistically, was THE BEST thing that could have happened for YOU ....
Your worst fears in life have come true, The thing you feared the most....
You stared down..
And look Destiny, you are still here...This has not done you in..
It caused you to dig deep, and really look inside of you for you.
I see a strength in you that you don't right now...
And as much as you feel you want to fight it.....
The human quest for life ( and everything that entails) has won inside of you...
This is a building tool for you....you took a MAJOR step over the past three weeks ....
Where you see despair, I see hope...
Where you see weakness, I see strength...
Where you see a backslide, I see growth inside...
Destiny, Not everything is as it appears ....
Your focus still comes through your marriage....
My focus is on you...
One subtle tweak, and your outlook changes...
Try to focus on you, and the glass becomes half full...
Be patient with yourself now...
Find the things YOU enjoy and DO THEM !
Find out who you are now, and live ....
IF your Husband comes back, then that is fine...
If he doesn't.....that is fine too...
Because YOU.....will be Destiny for you, not him...
