I am not going to dissect your post line by line. All I can say is that I am certain that we have all been there. Maybe not for the same reasons but let me rephrase and say I have been there. Let me talk about me for a while and you can take what you want from it. I now compare my relationship with my ex wife to a person that wants to quit smoking. Oh how I loved to smoke....one day I realized that smoking was not good for me and I decided to quit. It was not easy and there are various ways to give up the bad habit....but I came to the realization that it had to be done. Were there times that I would kill for a smoke? Of course.... If the cigarettes are in your face all the time and if you are taking puffs once in a while it becomes more difficult. So it took me a while to convince myself that cigarettes were bad...but I now know that they are. Some people replace them with other substances. For me it is the odd cigar....NGF is my cigar...lol. So BBJ, you need to kick the habit.....I have a hunch however that you are not convinced that cigarettes are bad for you.
