Well, I have alienated my family and friends over the last couple of days because I did not want to listen to what they have to say. I know they care but unfortunately, they don't know how to help. I wanted them to listen, but they continue to criticize, saying it has been 7 months since I have been feeling this way and that I must give it all up, forgot about and move one, others say I need to find a "santified church"; and still others says that I need to be around children who will bring a smile to my face. Maybe the latter is true, a sense of calmness comes over me when I am with my friend's children.
I did not mean to alienate my friends and one very good friend in particular. He was always there for me and I shut down and wanted to give up on myself because this feeling of pain and despair was greater than anything I ever wanted to experience. I need to give myself time, the same time my friend needs to also heal.
I guess it time the LBS of these MLC aliens will begin to feel whole again and finally be able to move on. However, some days are extremely difficult.
Thank you for your friendship and support. I hope you each have a better day than yesterday.
OLD THREAD-http://tinyurl.com/y98nuty Me 44 H 51 T 15 yrs M 9+ yrs No Kids "You may be deceived if you trust too much, but you will live in torment unless you trust enough."
